how is it october already

some first term pencil/charcoal work

here

well im here. thats about all i can say for now.
listening to music... its far to quite without it....

its heavy

so im back after not posting anything for MONTHS. between being busy, forgetful and just good ole procastination i have not been on at all. but im back, as i am leaving for art school on thursday and want this to be a way to keep my family up to date on my artwork.
it feels really weird right now, its really happening. it felt so unreal in april when i first applied. like yeah im signing up and i have months and months before i go than suddenly its here. i dunno, i guess that sounds strange. no one but me realizes what a big deal this is for me though. in a short few years ive changed so drastically. i could have never done this when i graduated highschool. i was so held back by anxiety, abandonment issues, and a whole gaggle of other personal battles i dont even want to talk about... point is this is ridiculous and in a good way.
for the most part i am excited. but it is bitter-sweet. i hate to think about what im leaving behind. my family, theyve always been my biggest fans and best support group... my only support really besides God Himself. theyve just been my world for so long, were so close. things will never be the same again come thursday afternoon when they help me move in and we say goodbye. sure, i hope to still be close and plan on calling/visiting often. but things will inevitably change. its just... heavy.
so this post probably meant nothing to anyone out there, sorry. i guess is was just more for me, getting some things off my chest since my journal is packed up already. i just needed to get this out of me.
my future is very hopeful, but this wont be without its struggles

etsy page updated

http://www.etsy.com/shop/immadi

gee

my latest pencil piece which i am sooo happy with.

i also want to talk about etsy. i had some art on there a while ago and im now trying again. art school means moving out and needing money i dont have, so if i could make some of art that would be great. im planning on selling prints as well as originals. all kinds of art since i like to play around with lots of different media. i think ill make the gerard way pic a print so if your a mcr fan... then... buy it...

photos to prove im not dead

just some pics my sis took today. thanks kenz for your mad fashion photography skills. anyway..... i should so a self portrait with one of this... ive never really done one so yeah...

Florence and the Machine - Cosmic Love

invisible children

this weekend invisible children visited my church. it was such an amazing experience, i feel so inspired. its one thing to watch a dvd, its totally another to hear it from someone who was there. they brought a former child soldier, francis, an incredible person. ive known him for 3 days and miss him already. the rest of the team was amazing too. its so great to see people around my age with the same passion for africa as i have, it makes me want to join too. something to pray about for sure, ive been told some colleges allow the invisble children roadie progam to count as an internship. so maybe my final year of college... who knows

this

words to live by

moar pen and ink

more work done over the past week

rex

i did this in my sketchbook a couple weeks ago and thought i should post it... cuz its cute and im trying to post something everyday now

mask WIP

masquerade, paper faces on parade, masquerade hide your face so the world will never find you ill try to have the finished piece up soon btw i do not own those lyrics. i guess andrew loyd webber does...

my hand is deeeaaad!

my hand died thanks to my recent pen and ink obsession. but i guess it was worth it since im pretty happy with all these pieces.

its friday, friday, friday

olivia

Today my 5 year old cousin was playing with her toy cell phone. She said she was talking to Martin Luther King Jr and thanking him for all that he did for African Americans. She said she told him about her cousins (my brothers who are adopted from West Africa), that they were beautiful and black and that she was so thankful that because of him they could go anywhere she could. Thats pretty freaking great, I hope more kids are like Liv because if they are there might be hope for the human race yet...

identity

I'm amazed and disturbed at how quick one can lose who they are. How the words and actions of others can mean so much more than our own. How the approval of everyone around us can become so important that we must love what they love and hate what they hate... even if its ourselves. It makes no sense and yet the past has never been so clear to me... I just hate looking back, but the beginning of our stories are still a part of them, no matter how hard. I also believe that part of me needs those bad times, because even what I view as 'bad' has shaped me in a way that maybe would have never happened without the struggles in life. Either way, it will always be there. I can't forget but in the same respect, I can't dwell on it. In July I leave for art school... my demons won't be coming with me...

Adele - Rolling In The Deep

i love this song and the video's even better. i mean srsly is that a ninja... amazing

sketchbook post

so here's the explanation: my bro kyle lost a tooth to a corndog, how anybody does that i don't know. but anyway it fell out and he bit down on his tooth, he said, "I thought it was a seed, but then I was like wait- corndogs don't have seeds!" and basically a story like that deserves an illustration with it.

a change in the wind

i've spent way to many nights
fighting with something that can't be beaten
trying to win when i know that i can't
time doesnt stop
i can't change that
but what does change is everything
people
family
friends
men
women
children
nature
weather
seasons
the wind
my defintion of love, friendship, home, myself
me, im guilty too
God is the only thing that stays the same
and i think i can live with that now